About the "Iron In The Fire"

So last week I alluded to the fact that I have an "iron in the fire" and now I'm ready to share.

Since quiting my full time job in January I have struggled with wanting to go back to work. Crazy I know since my husband has afforded me the luxury of staying home with the girls. The first 7 months were no big deal. I definately felt like my place was at home with the girls during our transition. But it seemed like as soon as we got our roots planted here I started to struggling with feeling unproductive, like I wasn't contributing, etc. Don't get me wrong I know that I am contributing to the girls and it's not a responsibility that I take lightly but I just felt like I needed more.

The Sunday before we left for Canada I told Corey I felt like I didn't have a reason to get up in the morning and that I had nothing to look forward to, mind you, we were going on vacation in five days. So we agreed to discuss it more after vacation. We returned from vacation and I just couldn't shake the feeling of wanting to go back to work full time. It got to the point where I told Corey that we needed to have weekly meetings to discuss my goals and objectives for the upcoming week. He seriously looked at me and said "you need to do something, I don't care if it's Mother's Day Out program or whatever, but find something". So I went on a couple of job interviews, one part time and one full time. The part time job would've been ok but it was doing some non-profit fundraising and I told Corey the thought of fundraising right now makes me want to throw up since I did it for the past 6 years. The full time job was actually the company that Corey did contract work for but I just didn't feel at peace about it. So do you want to know what I do feel at peace about...drumroll please...working part time at Gymboree.

So I did it, after I left the full time job interview last Monday I stopped at the brand new Gymboree in the brand new shopping center right down the street from our brand new house (do you think I like "new" things?). I came home, emailed the two companies I interviewed with and told them "thanks but no thanks" and waited for a call from Gymboree. Anyway Gymboree offered me a job that pays about three times less than the non-profit fundraising job would've paid but I am so excited about it! I'll be working 6-12 hours a week, get 40% off, have the opportunity to see all the new stuff first and have conversation with my peers that does not involve Hannah Montanna, Camp Rock or the Jo Bros!

The new shopping center is The Meadows at Lake St. Louis and it opened this past Saturday. It's all outdoors and it's owned by the same people that own the fancy schmancy Plaza Frontenac. Frontenac is the only place in town that has a Tiffany & Co and a Louis Vuitton. So The Meadows is a little more upscale than your average mall. Perfect for me!

Besides my "iron in the fire" we are hoping for a little something "in the oven". As I mentioned before we are trying something different this month and I had to go into the doc today for a test. The good news is everything looks perfect, with me and Corey. Honestly, there is no good reason for us not to be pregnant except for the fact that maybe we've had poor timing the last 6 months. I am really starting to think that it's just a luteal phase defect and the progesterone that I have taken and will take will take care of that. Of course this is my own self diagnosis but whatever.